Day 27

Challenge update:

I doubled today, bringing me to 26 classes. The plan is to double Saturday and Sunday, and victory!!

Why Am I So Cold?

This is both a literal and metaphorical question.

Also, today was one of my least favorite days, but Team Neurosis passed our audit with a 92. Go Crazies!

And now I'm going to bed, since I need to triple yoga again tomorrow to catch back up. This week's been a bitch.

Tuesday Thoughts

The loss of anonymity is a terrible thing.

The loss of innocence can happen at any age.

Understanding your personality type can change your life.

Yes, you are crazy. But you're behaving in exactly the crazy way people would expect if they understood your personality.

You are not special.

You are better than you think.

Sometimes being selfish is the only thing that will keep you from losing yourself.

What the....

I took a sanity and sunshine day off from yoga, mostly because I wanted to finish 'Gone Girl' and listen to music. I also locked my cat in timeout in the downstairs bathroom, since he decided it was a good idea to go all demon-spawn on the dog. And when I let him out, I found a deer head hanging over the toilet. I have no idea how long it's been there. Does it make it feel better when you pee if you can look directly into the face of something you killed? Do you talk to it? 'Hey there, I ate some of you today, and ... fuck, man, you were delicious.".....?!?!?!?! I really don't know how to respond to this.

So instead, I'm going to play a fun song  and never, never go in that bathroom again.

Repeat

How my Sunday goes:

• Yoga
• Shower
• Tea
• Book
• Repeat Tea & Book until dark.

I fell like this is acceptable and necessary for sanity. 

Long Island headache.

Some day I will tell you the story of today, aka 'How I Know I'm Going To Hell', but for now let me just list my day for you:

• Woke up before 6 AM (terrible)
• Worked till 3:15 (terrible)
• Stuffed my face, and drank a big ass raspberry Long Island (pretty good)
• Watched 2/3 of Divergent (meh)
• Missed the last 1/3 because some guy collapsed, and CPR and ambulance panic erupted. (do I need to rate this?)
• Developed a horrible headache on the drive home due to the combination of alcohol, adrenaline, and self-loathing (awful)
• Took a nap (meh)

Now, who's ready to do a double of yoga in the morning?!  Yay?

Snowy Spring

I had the day off, and thanks to my triple play of yoga yesterday, I did not have to leave the house. Which means no real pants or makeup. Which means I look like a freaking homeless person. Oh well. I think my middle school math teacher was the one who told me it takes two to three weeks to make a behavior into a habit, and I always sort of believed it, but never actually managed to make any life changes of my own. I am most decidedly not a morning person. If left to my own devices for days on end, I stay up till 3 AM and sleep till noon-ish. But somehow, today when I had every intention of being in bed till at least 11, I woke up all on my own.... at fucking 9:15. Three weeks of absolutely no days sleeping in, where every day was either work or yoga, and I've managed to destroy my ability to hibernate. But at least the last two days I've gotten somewhat healthy amounts of sleep, so my body seems to be evening out. I changed the ring tone on my phone, so I'm not terrified of oversleeping, and it seems to have worked. I don't recall waking up at 3 AM, or 4:30, or 5:40 (five minutes before the damn alarm for work...grrr). I know I feel stronger, so maybe I'm close to actually feeling like I have more energy, too. I can see the light at the end of the Challenge tunnel, and I've got to say, it's exciting. I've managed to not fall apart too terribly bad. And I think that I'm enough addicted to the good workout feelings that I can scale back and maintain three to four classes weekly without it being too much of a pain in the ass. Here's to progress!!